Friday, November 18, 2011

Failure

So I quit.  And started.  And quit.  And started.  And I'm back smoking again.

October was probably the worst month to attempt this.  Due to work stresses, and personal situations, I was averaging about a pack and a half per day by October 15th.  I was starting wake up in the morning just hacking, ripping up my throat with coughs every morning.  My father crashed his truck on October 18th, and I remember driving out to Norwood, burning through half a pack of Camel Blue's in 3 hours.  On October 25th, I decided it was time to get serious about it.

I purchased my first electronic cigarette that day at a South Shore plaza kiosk.  At $19.95 for a "starter pack"(2 e-cigarettes, a charger, and 10 nicotine cartridges), it seemed like a deal compared to the $8.59 I am currently paying for a pack of cigarettes.  After a 4 days of use, I couldn't stand the electronic cigarettes.  It felt like I was inhaling tainted air, and always needed a real cigarette right after using it.  After researching reviews on Amazon and various other websites, there really is no "good" electronic cigarette.  Reviews were posted for the $20 e-cigarettes through the $120 e-cigarettes, with most reviewers finding the electronic cigarettes to be pointless.

I have an appointment with my physician at the beginning of next week for an annual check-up, but my health insurance does cover nicotine patches.  I plan to start using the patches next week, and ask my doctor to evaluate my lungs/breath control, and ask his opinion on how smoking has affected my health.

After being awake 12 hours today, I've only smoke six cigarettes as well.  At this pace of cutting down, I'm doing great.

4 comments:

  1. Quitting smoking is rough. Until you get the patches, do you think any cigarettes with no additives would be better for your health, like American Spirit?

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  2. Smoking, being on the most addicting aspects to this world, remains one of the hardest things to quit. Fortunately, I never started. However many of my friends have tried multiple ways in trying to quit and although few have quit indefinitely, many keep going back. It remains a tough task. But that doesn't mean to give up and go back. Keep trying man.

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  3. I'm sorry to hear about your dad. I hope he's okay.

    The patch could be useful, I'd be interested in your take on it. The holidays are super stressful for me. I wouldn't want to make any big changes during December. All that being said, you are making choices, thinking a bunch, and changing behaviors. I hope you don't make one problem into two by being too hard on yourself. You'll get where you want if you keep at it. Cheers.

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  4. Good luck man. Gum worked for me once.I smoke now so I guess it really didn't though.

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